There's no easy way to say what needs to be said, so I'm just going to post it. I've been debating the last few weeks how to, but it's been a bit hard for me in addition to everything else.
I've lived a wonderful 2 years with you guys. But it's time for me to go home to america. I had originally planned a 5 year stay, but things happened and I have to go. I don't really have any solid option that I would take to stay here, and after thinking about it for a long time with my family, I do think the best option is to go back to the US. In many ways I'm happy to see my family again... but I also am going to lose the family I made here.
I don't really want 5 million questions, or stress right now because it's honestly complicated enough. Id rather use the remaining free time I have to see you guys before I go. I had planned to stay longer but... my father has booked my flight for October 3rd. There's not much I can do to change that.
I don't even really know what to say otherwise. But I felt that it was time to let everyone know, because I would rather you hear it from me than someone else. I don't think you guys realize how much you eased the stress of living in another country for a long time, and how awesome you have been (both the melee and the brawl community when they decide to host / go to events).
To Ramin. I'm sorry because I feel like there aren't to many players left that really try hard for the game anymore in NL, but I wish you the best luck in training for apex. You probably are the hardest person to tell this to, not only because it's going to be much harder to see a good friend, but because I feel like I'm taking away something from you in terms of practice.
I'm also sorry this isn't a beautiful essay for you to read. Because whenever I write one I keep changing it and stressing. I just decided to make a rant and post it.